Ugh

I think i need help, i got way too much bottled up feelings that will nvr ever go on fb or twitter and i fear i might explode anytime soon.

Friendships

After being like 25 years on this planet, I don't even know why I could figure things only now, espcially with the  concept of friendships.

My observation of it goes like this:

Stage 1 - This is where usually people get to know each other and become friends. Starts with talking bout stuff and then develops to other outside stuff.

Stage 2 - Common interests/common factor

Stage 3 - Best friends/brotherhoods/sisterhoods/whatever u call it.

Unfortunately, for me, the third stage is where i have trouble getting to. Sometimes i just don't get why some group of people hang out for a year and become like best buddies and I hang out with the same people for the same period of time yet I don't feel that aura of buddies. Of course for me, that also stems from problems of getting into Stage 2. The most common thing UBD-ians are interested in are mostly football, something I don't have skills nor interest in. Guess this will be problem for me in the next few years then.....

Truthfully, sometimes i envy ppl with such friendships. Maybe it is something i desired for a long time after that mental damage i took from that depression a long time ago

First post of 2012

Well, l2012 has been already here for days (happy belated new years all hahaha), really didn't nothing much. Gotta really start reading that Business Icons that has been sitting there for quite a while unread.

New semester's gonna start next week, can't wait for it since I been resting for too long (despite stress is gonna be around fast). New start for me since its different modules I'm taking. Just hope I can do well in socializing since networking is not my best ability there forming bonds are just as equally difficult( probably because i'm in different classes with different classmates at all times)

Sometimes I don't wanna be judging ppl but sometimes the way they behave (such as being loud n oblivious to surroundings) really can get to your nerves and start judging them, especially when they come in groups.

Just realized I sometimes don't write much down here. That's most probably I just say what I feel here and never thought bout discussing stuff in greater detail

-Hanster's out-