13 April 2007

Friday the 13th

Strange huh that today matches the exact name of friday the 13th? Everyone should be watchin the movie to celebrate it(i know i didn :P)

So I got accepted by ITB,lucky i didn have to do the tests,just listed as "Interview Only" in my course of HND in Business and Finance (Accounting).

If i do get in(hopefully i do),i probably work to fix on how i choose to socialize,maybe i will just choose to stick to fewer groups most of the time.The last time at PTE i chose to talk to many groups at random times,so tat probably makes feel not belonging to a particular group.

Sometimes i wonder how do ppl feel bout them being different from other ppl in a group .I'm pretty sure they have their own views bout this.Some may feel a certain unique-ness about themselves and they may be able to become themselves inside out.Some may feel that its kinda of a "social curse"(i'm pretty sure thats just me thinkin this) and will too quiet most of the time.

A while ago i was doing a quiz so i probably would end this post with it]




You Should Drive a Bentley Azure



You're all flash, and you love to show off to anyone who will watch.

And you're such a high roller, this is just one car of many for you...



Oh,yea chapter 2's coming soon
-Hanster's out-

09 April 2007

Chapter 1

To get rid of my boring times i decide i proabably will be writing stories well,just for the fun of it since its one way to use my imagination to its fullest.So here it goes(subject to my changes hehe)

Chapter 1(Northern Kingdom - Chapter 1)

The Northern kingdom, like the others, was also under attack by an unknown enemy, which was so powerful that all the armies outside their cities were completely destroyed. So right now everyone is busy defending the 4 gates that leads inside the kingdom.

While all the preparations were being done, a dark figure was watching. His outfit was completely black with dark red stripes along with a black cape along with dark wings which was almost completely hidden by the cape.

Dark figure: So, this is the Northern Kingdom
??? : Busy watching over this kingdom?

He looks behind him and saw another Dark General behind him; she wore exactly the same outfit except the red stripes, cape and wings as well as a lighter shade of black.

Dark figure: Oh, Hayare, what the hell you’re doing here?
Hayare: Just providing some support in raiding the castle.
Dark figure: With your long range skills?
Hayare: How’d you guess?
Dark figure: It’s obvious from that bow behind your back, just don’t get in my way

He then gets a headache, not a painful one but enough annoying to make him clutch his head.

Hayare: What’s wrong?
Dark figure: I think they are finished preparing, it should be “them” if I’m not mistaken, you brought the test subjects for this battle?

Hayare: Yup,you sure they can last against “them”?
Dark figure: Don’t worry “they” have Level One armors so both sides can fight on equal power

The castle alarm suddenly activated “We have intruders in the sky!! Shoot them down!!”

Dark figure: Looks like we’re starting this battle early. Deploy the subjects and let’s go.

The Dark figure opens his wings and goes charging into the castle but got stopped from arrows given by the archers defending the castle. His only way to avoid the arrows was either to dodge them or block them with his sword. His wings are okay because anything can pass through as if it’s invisible.

Hayare: Arrow Rain!

She fires a single arrow that instantly becomes a lot of arrows, which all accurately counters the incoming arrows towards both of them.

Dark figure: Dark Wave Slash!

With one swing of his sword he creates a visible shockwave that effectively kills several archers every time. With the rapid success of these two attacks all the archers were killed except for their squad leader and that’s Hidayah.

Hidayah: You’re not getting through here!
Dark figure: This one’s mine!
Hidayah: Chain Shot!

From a single arrow, her shots have become very machinegun-like, which is more difficult to block or avoid since all of them comes at one go. Hayare tries to break the chain with one of her arrows but got her arrow broken instead. After endless times of dodging, the dark figure starts to lose his patience.

Dark figure: Time to get serious, Armor Fusion! Level 5!

With that, he’s now surrounded by an armor which is the same colour as his outfit but now his head has a helmet now which has sharp edges to the back. His sword was now longer and even more pitch black which is convenient since it’s a night raid. With an increased speed, he charges towards Hidayah, who clearly won’t have enough time to recover in the middle of her attack. Once he reaches her, he delivers a slash to her, fatal but not enough to kill her, just knock her out.

Dark figure: Now, Hayare, you just stay there and don’t follow me.

He then just went inside the castle.

25 March 2007

Its just a dream

I gotta say today was the first time in years that i woke up not feelin moody.Its probably the dream that i have before that awakening of my eyes.I was dreaming that i was in a place,no idea what i was doing there(most likely shopping haha) but i met most of my frens there.The nice thing was that i met them one/groups after another but the sucky thing was i that i was in that place alone when everyone else is in groups :P

While learning more bout myself,what i found out along with the sudden dream i had this morning is that I feel the happiest when talkin or socialising with friends.I think thats maybe that feeling is very short-fused all the time to me so i probably feel that i want to remember it while it lasted becoz once the moment's over i'm back to my old depressed self once again(but i will still feel happy a bit).

Well that ends my short post tonite,cya ppl
-Hanster's out-

21 March 2007

A new background

Noticed the blue background now behind everypost here? yea,i decided on making a new background since the other day i saw a photoshop tutorial on abstract effects and this one was interesting enough that i took it hehe.

Still having no job,and since i haven got a reply yet from the auditing firm i applied,maybe i should just apply for other types of jobs maybe as in a bank or hotel considering that these were the most popular choices among my friends,but of coz i hav no idea how the process goes becoz i don't even know the correct person in these places to approach.I would hav asked my frens but my credit is low these days so postin here may still have some chance and of coz it cost $0.00 hehe.

I think i'm not ready for relationships yet,becoz its random things for every relationships there ever was.You may get someone whos either a bitch,obsessive,caring,bubbly,very socialising and etc and the funny thing is some of these qualities don't really appear till ur actually in the relationship.Well i guess love is blind after all,we really can't get what we expect

Another thing would be the time they last,most relationships i see don't really last that long and not even forever,something which i thought Mirul and Afifah would be but both of them broke up wif their gf and bf respectively.It makes me think that I probably will alternate between single or taken very rapidly in the future."Games" that people play will only make their relationship last longer but i'm sure those have to be played very frequently or else the relationship will crumble to the ground.

I guess i should enjoy being single,after all it gives us less financial problems n more free time hahahha.

-Hanster's out-

17 March 2007

Bipolar explainations

Wonder why i used "bipolar" in my blog title? Well if u wanna know:

Well i took it from "bipolar disorder" which i find the meanin on wikipedia and i now define it as rapid changing of moods.Think of it as another kind of depression.Only by wikipedia it was then i know what kind of depression i was having since form 4.My depression effect of moods still hasn changed but other aspects of it have already got better.I remember during Form4-Form5 i was completely insomniac throughout the whole 2 years and have always thought of suicide everyday.

Strangely enough,these aspects was almost reduced to zero when i start a new life as a Lower 6 student maybe due to me knowing new people and a different social setting.From there onwards,i considered myself to be "revived" and my past-self "dead" since i feel completely different from who i used to be since everyday seem like a really fun day well xcept for sociology classes haha.

Then came Upper 6 where its almost the same thing xcept now that my suicide thoughts return somewhere in the middle of the year plus a new personality of "i hate n care bout u at the same time" as well as being more curious.I gotta say,the hate-care thingy(tat was kept a secret till i told it in the 6 tagged questions) was pretty much scary even to me becoz it also gav me a fear that i might go berserk one day.For goodness sake,hate and caring dun often go together right?
and somehow i got both of these together as one *sigh*

And i dunno why i would get so upset over being left out.This wasnt such a problem in lower 6 for me so it confuses me why i'm getting tat only in upper 6.Either thats something gotta do wif my past or its just my damn way of dealing wif it

Usually i nvr tell these things to ppl since i dun wanna get hated on/a negative feelin by ppl for just this one single post.But of coz i know my readers equally long enough so i'm share this one wif all of u guys n gals out there some facts tat u should know bout me.So off i go then

-Hanster's out-

15 March 2007

Tagged again n happy bday

This time i'm tagged by Ammar n Afifah aka The Double A's lol,only this time it doesnt involve questions hehe

Rules & Regulations:Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1) I eat ice cubes,the ones tat can fit into my mouth that is hahaha

2) I believe that i have more than just personality inside of me

3) I'm one of those few people that r "sushi virgins"(that term comes from Izzul then Ammar haha)

4) I hate my frens but i care bout them at the same time(weird huh?)

5)A loner but loves the company of frens(not tat weird but still weird)

6)Believes that the world will meet its end someday

Now lets see who i will tag:Mahirah,Sabreena,Qamarul,Izzul,Zeing n Munirah hehe

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Sorry for stealing ur pics to make this hehe,these were the best pics of all them that i found :P
Enjoy the fact that ur one step closer to u-know-what

-Hanster's out-

10 March 2007

my kl trip

since im lazy to write so much i will just put more random pictures(i will put that at the end of this post) in here that i took durin my time at kl.

While i was in kl,strange thing was that i keep getting flashbacks of my social life every now and then.Hopefully this is not a sign of something bad to come.

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-Hanster's out-